Hi,

It is enough difficult (for me) to understand your very specific language: "the broad took off for Needles with a former roadie for Black Oak Arkansas", "mescal/meth binge" - what are the means? I don't find the words are in a dictionary.

O'k, if the picture is yours into weightlifting - so it is heavy thing and not good for the health. I suggest to you to throw down 20-30 kg of the body's weight and you will feel a taste of a life (but you will can achieve it only and only if you never use any "bodybuilding drugs" in a previous time).

Don't worry for your wife - will find an other nice girl which will to help to you in all your life and to soothe the one. You are MAN and your able to have a great love strength into your soul and body. Throw out all foolishness from your brain and use your gifts and talents for a live and enjoyments for you and others. Anyway also I prefer to see you into a street fight (on a picture), or a boxing, or martial arts... It is will realy to whirl you on a new level of a life's feels, no?